Monday, January 25, 2010

On a very blustery day

So today has been a fairly good day. The weekend was good, and I ended up getting quite a bit done. I feel I'm doing well on weight loss plan. I've lost a total of 6 pounds since I started in November, and that's with taking a month off in December. I did only work out once last week, but that is because I was feeling like crap all week. So I got a lot done this weekend and I'm feeling better today, so I am going to go work out tonight. Now I am just debating on weather or not to eat dinner here at work and eat a little Lean Cuisine thing that I have here in the freezer or wait and eat dinner at home, and fix what I was going to fix in the first place. It's healthier for me to eat earlier, but at the same time I feel bad because when I eat early then I don't make anything for Chris. So he has to fend for himself. But I'll figure it out. I have switched to Organic Milk and I can't believe the difference! It tastes so much better, and it IS so much better for you! My sister told me what all they put into milk that isn't organic and I was just blown away. They put a ton of hormones in the cows so they produce more milk, and then I also heard that the non organic milk is a small percentage of puss and blood. Mmmm...yummy just what I've always wanted. So I think I"m going to slowly switch to more organic foods and stuff. It is just so much better for you. Yeah it may be a little bit more expensive but it is worth it. I mean some of it really does effect your health. I have already been buying chicken that is free feed and hormone and pesticide free. I don't know what the specific term is, but anyways I've been buying that, but haven't eaten it in a while. It is on the menu this week so it will get eaten, and I feel that it tastes better, and looks better, but that may just be a placebo effect. Anyways I just feel healthier and happier when I know what I'm putting into my body is natural and good for me.

The other day I had an egg mcmuffin from McDonald's just because I wanted the egg, and I was running too late to make breakfast so I stopped there on the way to work got and egg mcmuffin. Got to work and took the ham off, and scraped as much of the cheese off of the egg, and ate the egg and the english muffin. Well I was only able to eat a little bit of the sandwhich because even though it was just mostly egg it was still really greasy, needless to say it was disgusting! For not have eaten fast food in over two weeks and then going and having that I felt sick. Its amazing what our bodies get used to when we just pile that stuff on. No wonder our country is overweight. When you finally make the change you realize what a disservice you were doing to your body before. It's amazing. I love feeling healthy and knowing what I am putting into my body.

Good news on my workouts...I am now running at 5.5 for a good 3 to 4 min now! I'm so proud of myself and its only going to get easier. I'm almost getting a high from working out. I feel so good afterwards that now when I don't go to the gym on my nights that I'm supposed to go I feel really guilty. So I guess that's a good thing.

The only thing I'm battling now is being hungry just a few hours after my lunch, even though I've already had a snack. Just something to get used to I guess. I have to train my stomach to not be hungry all the time!

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

A pound a week keeps the drs mean words away!

So as you guessed it I am losing about a pound a week. I'm so proud of myself! I can't believe it and I'm already starting to see slight results in my body. My back fat isn't as noticeable, and I can tell in some of my clothes that I've lost a little bit of weight. I'm so happy for myself. Even though I am crazy exhausted the next day I know I"m doing good things for my body. I'm watching labels more closely now and its crazy when you start watching them how much you were putting into your body. I'm blown away by how the smallest portion of somethin has a crazy number of calories in it. Those are the things that I try to stay away from. I've also noticed that when I do go out for dinner though, that I don't eat near as much as I used to. And I'm getting really full really fast. And I'm choosing better options for myself. Not just because I know I need to but because I want to know and the healthier options always taste so much better too and they don't leave me feeling miserable and heavy after the meal.

Like last night for example I met my sister and the kiddos at Chucke Cheeses last night and every one was having pizza and stuff, and I got a salad bar and had like two pieces of an individual size veggie pizza and it was sooo good and it felt good to eat it like I didn't feel guilty at all. And the salad was good too! Like I never imagined that I would choose a veggie pizza and a salad to eat and love every bite of it. But now its the first option I go for and it ends up being delicious and healthy! I love it.

I really enjoy how these healthier choices are making me feel. I just feel better. Its so exciting. I think I'm almost to the point to where I can replace beef with Turkey or Mushrooms. I had a steak Sunday night with my parents and I just could barely eat any of it because it was so heavy and I just really didn't like the taste. And the same with my spaghetti. I made it with ground beef and while I was eating it thats all I was tasting and I just wanted to spit it out. I didn't want the heavyness in my body. And I know that beef is one of the most unhealthy meats out there for you. So I'm going to slowly try to weed that out of my diet. My husband will probably hate me for it cause its his favorite, but I don't know what else to do.

Also with the whole eating better thing and closely watching my caloric intake I've been doing really well with my work outs. I've been trying to go at least 2 to 3 times a week and I'm getting better at doing the things that I do when I'm there. I've gone from only being able to walk at 3.0-3.5 mph on the treadmill now I'm up to running 5.0-5.5 mph for most of the time and it feels great! Yeah my back and chest tend to hurt a little bit afterwards but thats why I'm also doing the weight machines that I'm doing. To build those muscles to be stronger so they won't hurt anymore just from normal daily activities.

Like I said I'm losing about a pound to a pound and a half in one week! That's huge! I'm so happy, and even my mom and grandma noticed my belly is just a teeny bit smaller and my face is just a smidgen thinner. Its nice to hear when people actually notice and appreciate the work you are doing for yourself. I am working very hard and it is paying off. I'm hoping to be down to at least to 170 by the time I have my yearly dr appointment. Because he is always telling me to lose weight. I'm not really sure how much I weighed last year when I went but he was harping on my about my weight then. I didn't want to go this year weighing more than I did last year. That would be horrible I want him to acutally see that I am working on it and trying.

Well here's to working out and getting fit!

Thursday, January 7, 2010

The Best Things in Life...

Last night with the bitter cold temperatures and the freezing drizzle and the crazy winds I didn't make it to the gym to work out. I felt horrible but why risk my life or my car just for a freaking work out. :) So what I ended up doing was watching my husband do his amazing work and fix and Xbox and teased him and annoyed him until he payed attention to me....I know I know, but isn't that what girls and wives are best at doing. So anyway once he finally paid attention to me we laid in bed and just started talking, and then talking turned into a tickle fight. You know, thats really my favorite part of being married. Being with my best friend, and being able to just be myself around the person that I love most. And whats funny is, yeah, we have been together for almost 4 years now and I'm still learing new things about him, and I'm still falling deeper in love with him. I feel so lucky to have what I have with him. :) It's just amazing to me. How a tickle fight in the middle of a freaking arctic blast in OKLAHOMA can make me realize how much I love my husband. Its really the best thing in the world.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Day 3 "Tired and Obsessive"

So I didn't go work out last night. I feel bad but its not like I'm not going to work out at all. I will go tonight, I have no reason not to. Last night I was sore like no other so that's why I didn't go. I know I know just more excuses, but in all acutality I just didn't want to go. Tonight I don't want to go but I'm going to make myself go. I need to get on a regualr routien and just do it! And I really think that once I get back to where I was before I took a month off I'll be able to go 4 days a week like I want to. I just have to get my muscles conditioned to the pain. Once that happens I'll be golden
Today has been pretty good and I've done fairly well on my eating habits. I got full off of a home made turkey sandwhich with mustard and pepper and a bowl of easy mac. Which is surprising. I remember the day that I would eat that and then some. So slowly but surely I will get there. I may not reach my goal by June like I want to but I will closer than I am now. :) I have decided that I'm not going to do fast food any more. Other than Subway...thats like my life line haha! if I forget my lunch then I have to have some place to go and thats really the only place I can go that is still healthy for me, and tastes good.
Work today is ok. Its been busy which is nice cause it helps the day go by faster but at the same time it sucks cause it just wears me out faster. Which I don't need so that I can go to the gym after work and not be miserable. Some might say I'm a bit obsessed with this whole weight loss thing. But I feel like if I don't obsess about it then it won't happen. I'm the type of person that if I don't give something 100% then I'm not going to do it at all. And I am doing my best for that to not happen.
Is it weird that I want to lose weight so that I can just get pregnant?! :)

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Day 2

So last night I went to the gym. The first night back from a month off. Can I just tell you that I am extremely proud of myself. Not only did I have a good work out but I had a great day as far as food and pop goes. This was my day yesterday...

Lunch- Water and a Subway Turkey breast 6" sub with oil & vinegar instead of Ranch! Woo Hoo!

Dinner- Popcorn Chicken and some velveeta shells and cheese and Water!

My work out consisted of 30min on the treadmill walking/running for a mile and a half, and then once my legs couldn't take it any longer I moved onto the weights. And I did a few sets of arm curls and stuff and then did a few sets of crunches with the weights. Man was it difficult but it felt really good. And I feel better for doing it. I'm sore as hell today but its a good sore.

Today I've been debating on weather or not I want to go back tonight and do a work out schedule of Monday, Tuesday, Thursday and Friday or if I want to do a Monday, Wednesday, Friday schedule. I am pretty tired today and I think that if I to the first option it will make me more tired, but it would give me more time in the gym and weight would come off faster. So really its all about what I want more....to be fat and tired or to be skinny and looking great faster! :) I think I'll go for the latter.

Today I've done pretty good. I've had a ton of water and had the same sandwhich I had for lunch as yesterday it was still really good! :) And tonight for dinner I plan on having some kind of pasta something or other. It sounds unhealthy but really in the end its all about portion control.

Work is pretty good. Its actually better than Yesterday cause I don't have to worry about a specific incedent any more. Its all water under the bridge now. And like Chris said I did make it out to be a bigger deal that what it really was. So that being said I can now actually come to work and enjoy what I do.

Great start to a great Year! I just hope I can keep on it! ;)

Monday, January 4, 2010

New Year

So today started the first day of my going back to being good and jumping on the bandwagon for the diet train. I have set a goal that I want to get to my goal weight of 135 by this summer. I pray that I can do it. I just need support and motivation from those closest to me. I am just tired of being the weight that I am now. And I can't imagine that my husband is too happy about it either. Hell he married a girl that was around 145, and now I'm 35 pounds heavier it makes me feel a little bit selfish and unattractive. I don't feel sexy any more, and thats what I really want. So for this new year I want to get down to a new me. A healthier me. And I feel like I can do it I just need to stand strong and fight the urge to get a pop out of the breakroom.

Also today is the first day back at work for the new year. I really hope that it turns out to be a lot better than how last year ended. It was turning out to be pretty crappy. I just need to keep a positive mind while I'm at work. I tend to let things get to me too easily and I also tend to take things too personal. I just need to think like my husband and just let things pass me by. Yeah it happened so what. What more is there that I can do about other than put a smile on my face and make my customers as happy as I can. I just hope nothing else goes wrong. That's the last thing I need.

This year I also plan to open my home to more social events. And to family that wishes to come and visit. I enjoy opening my home to others and playing host to many people. I love throwing parties and I hope that along with the help of some friends I can make that work. So hopefully this year I can do more things spend more time with the ones that I love and maybe make some new friends.

I feel this year has already started off on a good foot I just hope I can keep it that way.