Monday, January 4, 2010

New Year

So today started the first day of my going back to being good and jumping on the bandwagon for the diet train. I have set a goal that I want to get to my goal weight of 135 by this summer. I pray that I can do it. I just need support and motivation from those closest to me. I am just tired of being the weight that I am now. And I can't imagine that my husband is too happy about it either. Hell he married a girl that was around 145, and now I'm 35 pounds heavier it makes me feel a little bit selfish and unattractive. I don't feel sexy any more, and thats what I really want. So for this new year I want to get down to a new me. A healthier me. And I feel like I can do it I just need to stand strong and fight the urge to get a pop out of the breakroom.

Also today is the first day back at work for the new year. I really hope that it turns out to be a lot better than how last year ended. It was turning out to be pretty crappy. I just need to keep a positive mind while I'm at work. I tend to let things get to me too easily and I also tend to take things too personal. I just need to think like my husband and just let things pass me by. Yeah it happened so what. What more is there that I can do about other than put a smile on my face and make my customers as happy as I can. I just hope nothing else goes wrong. That's the last thing I need.

This year I also plan to open my home to more social events. And to family that wishes to come and visit. I enjoy opening my home to others and playing host to many people. I love throwing parties and I hope that along with the help of some friends I can make that work. So hopefully this year I can do more things spend more time with the ones that I love and maybe make some new friends.

I feel this year has already started off on a good foot I just hope I can keep it that way.


  1. yeah, I need to let things just pass me by too. It can be very difficult! I always just keep thinking about things, or how I could've done something differently, but by then its already in the past where I cant change it so I need to just put it behind me.

    And Yes! fight the pop urges! you will be amazed by how much weight you can lose by just stopping that.

  2. You ROCK Heather, I am trying hard to loose some weight I'm right with you honey