New Year

So today started the first day of my going back to being good and jumping on the bandwagon for the diet train. I have set a goal that I want to get to my goal weight of 135 by this summer. I pray that I can do it. I just need support and motivation from those closest to me. I am just tired of being the weight that I am now. And I can't imagine that my husband is too happy about it either. Hell he married a girl that was around 145, and now I'm 35 pounds heavier it makes me feel a little bit selfish and unattractive. I don't feel sexy any more, and thats what I really want. So for this new year I want to get down to a new me. A healthier me. And I feel like I can do it I just need to stand strong and fight the urge to get a pop out of the breakroom.

Also today is the first day back at work for the new year. I really hope that it turns out to be a lot better than how last year ended. It was turning out to be pretty crappy. I just need to keep a positive mind while I'm at work. I tend to let things get to me too easily and I also tend to take things too personal. I just need to think like my husband and just let things pass me by. Yeah it happened so what. What more is there that I can do about other than put a smile on my face and make my customers as happy as I can. I just hope nothing else goes wrong. That's the last thing I need.

This year I also plan to open my home to more social events. And to family that wishes to come and visit. I enjoy opening my home to others and playing host to many people. I love throwing parties and I hope that along with the help of some friends I can make that work. So hopefully this year I can do more things spend more time with the ones that I love and maybe make some new friends.

I feel this year has already started off on a good foot I just hope I can keep it that way.